"Now now.. don't you just sit on the couch and eat"

Did I tell you that Rob is working away this week? I was just talking to him about how I am taking the week off exercise. He said that's a good thing but not to use it as an excuse to sit on the couch and eat! Now some people may think that what he said was rude. But in a way he was only being honest and I have realised that he knows me better than I thought. I have been coming home and sitting on the couch and eating.

Yum yum - weight watchers raspberry tartlets and English breakfast tea!!!

But this is how I relax? "Hello Polly do you or don't know want to fit back into your wardrobe??????'

You may wonder, why can't I just be happy to be my size? If you look at my profile picture I don't look obese and I am also a relatively fit and healthy person. Why can't I just be happy with that?

Well according to the rules I am classed as overweight. I also love that feeling of being in the 60's even if it is only 69.9 kg. I feel sexy, I feel like I can wear anything, i love myself more, I socialise more, I smile more... I want that back! I may only need to lose 7 kilos but I also need to do so much more (i.e. change the behaviour patterns that cause me to binge eat).

Cancelled!

I had my blog open at work and was gradually typing my post and then I accidentally deleted it.

I had a fudge of a day. I have finally finished a big project and now I just want to chill out for a bit but it is not happening. I always get nervous to ask the boss for a day off. Even last week when I had the migraine and rang up sick I felt like I was lying even though I was pretty much BLAH for the day. I would really like a Friday and a Monday off.

Now for the title of my post - I cancelled my Weight Watchers Unlimited membership today. I will join the WW on Tuesday and then get access to e-tools. I will actually be saving money :-)

I'm still restricted with my movement. My calves are still really sore and I am prepared to rest up for the rest of the week so I don't do any damage. Ha ha - any excuse to sleep in and stay in after work. It is getting colder and colder -bbrrrrgggghhhhh...

Okay I'm off to read an article about the yo yo dieter - who me?

"Scales! Get out of my bathroom"

I weighed myself this morning in the nud! I am 77kg. I'm happy that I haven't gained but I think I seriously need to stop weighing myself everyday. You never see results. If I gain a little I think "Why do I bother? That's it I might as well have had that pizza". But it is perfectly natural to gain a little. Therefore, the scales are somewhere in the shed and I am only going to weigh myself every Tuesday at Weight Watchers.

I don't have good shoes to wear with jeans. I wear these brown flat ones with no support and are not particularly good for winter. My boyfriend has very kindly bought me a new pair of shoes.

Check them out:

They are a nice neutral green pair of Merrells. I love them! There is no way I could have afforded them with out him. Thank you Robbie XX

Weight Watchers at Work

I just rang up Weight Watchers to discuss my options in transferring my membership over from Unlimited to At Work :-(

The lady said that you can't do it. I will have to cancel and then re-sign up. But I'm not even sure if I get access to E-Tools. I will have to suss out what I will get and how much it will cost and do up a comparison.

I'm kind of seeing a lot of gorgeous, beautiful skinny women around lately. I want to be one of them and the only way I will be is if I "act" NOW!

Skinny thoughts...

Motivation

Motivation - what gets you out of bed in the morning or helps you run for that extra minute when you legs are burning!!!

I thought I may have lost complete care and motivation but I just finished soccer training (far out it was cold) and now I feel good!

Weight Watchers says that there are five factors that help find motivation:

1. Harness group support - I think I lack at this factor. I am hoping that WW at work will help with the discipline, drive and determination that you get from group support.
2. Write your goals down - I do have goals and how I'd reward them in my head but I think I should write them down so here goes:
   Goal 1 75 kg - reward with new running shoes and boy do I need them)
   Goal 2 73 kg - reward with a high visibility bike riding top (long sleeves as it is getting chilly)
   Goal 3 71.5 kg - reward with a facial
   Goal 4 70 kg - reward with some black boots (if I can afford them, my rewards are adding up)
   Goal 5 69.9 kg - this is my goal weight. I will reward myself by purchasing a full length mirror.
   Goal 6 LIFETIME MEMBERSHIP - I would love a weekend away with my man. We live in Tasmania and there are so many gorgeous places to go. I think I will pick Strahan.
   I know my goals are in very small increments but I am aware of just how slowly I am loosing it and when I get to the last five, they are always the hardest to lose.
3. Visualise what you want - I use to do this and I believe it works. I should do it again. I know that mentally I might set myself up for failure. Thinking - arrgh well you never lose it so why do you think you will this time.
4. Don't set the bar too high - I think this is what went wrong last time I did Weight Watchers. I remember wanting to be 67 kg and it is impossible for me. People who set unrealistic weight goals become demotivated. I think 69.9 is achievable?
5. Aim to avoid comparison - mmm.. hitting a weight loss plateau, feeling like other people are doing better than you or simply finding the regime harder than thought = demotivating. I must understand why my end goal is important to me and hold it in my mind.

Very interesting don't you think. I', heading to bed early. I'm hoping to make it to boot campt. I slept in yesterday (by choice) and didn't go.

Skinny thoughts...

Not to be read for inspiration.

One of the bloggers blogged "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different result - Albert Einstein".

I like it. It reminds me of my weight loss journey. Same exercise routine, same bad eating habits = same weight.

I don't feel like exercising this week. I scored myself a migraine after soccer on Sunday and had yesterday off work. today I feel tired and when I stopped off at the supermarket to buy bread I walked out with a packet of mars bar biscuits from the supermarket bakery. This is why I buy my groceries online, to stop myself from doing stupid things. I now feel so sick that I have changed into my pyjamas.

You probably shouldn't be reading this if you are looking for inspiration... I must be honest with myself and be weary of the triggers.

I think my frame of mind has some what taken a few steps backwards. Because Weight Watchers is coming to my work I am using it as an excuse not to bother. But now I feel like a fat slob. I think my period might be due. I'm not normally like this? Or am I?

I think I'll have a shower and get an early night.

Weight Watchers is coming to my work

That's right!

WW is coming to my work. We are booked in. I have no idea why it takes so long to organise. Anyway - we are starting TUE 25 May at 2 PM.

I have been slacking of the tracking and basically what I put in my mouth side of things for the last few weeks knowing that Weight Watchers is coming to my work. No more excuses (soon).

I didn't go to boot camp this morning. My boyfriend is not very good at motivating me to exercise. Every morning -

Rob: "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! Stay in bed"
Polly: "Don't do this to me, do you want a fat GF or a skinny one?"
Rob: "I want cuddles"
Polly: (thoughts in head) "Sounds nice, I like this attention"
Polly: "Okay"
1 minute later - we fall asleep and nothing happened and the calories from last nights ice cream settle back on my butt.

Now I feel sluggish. Now I feel like I just want to go home and do nothing. It is amazing how a start to the day that is outside your normal routine just takes you out of wack.

I weighed myself this morning. I weighed 77.7 kg. So I am really back at the start again.

*Sigh

It will happen though. I know that inside me is another body that wants to shine. Her clothes are waiting for her and taking up 3/4s of my wardrobe...

Skinny thoughts...

HONESTY is the best policy!!

I read in this month's Women's Health magazine that one of the keys to loosing weight successfully is to record openly and honestly about your weight loss journey. This includes the highs and lows lows lows.

So here I go. *GULP*

So last week was hectic at work and I didn't do any exercise for 6 days and you already know thatI organised a forum for work so there was lots of nice forum food to indulge it - I indulged!

On the weekend I tried to make up with it by exercising in all my spare time. But I'm still failing on the food part! I did try sometimes....

Saturday
Morning run with my girl friends followed by a latte and poached eggs and bacon on (only one) piece of toast.

Lunch time bike ride (40 km and lots of hills) followed by sarsaparilla and 2 X sausage roll ( 1 sausage roll = 10 points)

Too stuffed to cook dinner! Yep we ordered pizza! Gourmet vegetarian and a garlic prawn pizza. It was so delicious. Especially when I washed it down with REAL coke.

Sunday

Toast with Vegemite (love) and orange juice. Followed by a FULL game of soccer (we drew) and crisps as my partner was eating them when I got home.

I made a nice and healthy broccoli soup (only 2 points) for dinner. But um - failed it with a banana split!

I seriously don't eat like that all the time but how crazy? That pizza was seriously Devinne though :-)

I made a healthy pasta dish last night (I should start taking pictures) and tonight we are having mini pita bread pizzas (6.5 points) with salad (0 points).

I am seriously hoping that when Weight Watchers comes to work I get my act together.

Skinny thoughts.....

Inspiration...

I have just read last months Weight Watchers magazine. Yeah I know I'm a bit behind. The magazines a piling up on my bedside table along with a the famous "eat, love, pray" novel that I have been reading on and off since Christmas. I blame it on the iPhone and facebook.

Anyway, there is an article in the magazine about a Physical Education teacher. She was into fitness but needed help with her diet. This is a woman after my own heart. She was a size 14 (my size) and is now a size 10- 12 (my goal size).

You know what. Because I have been running around with my Head chopped off I have no been tracking my points. I have now placed my lap top next to my bed so every night I will track my points and exercise again.

I think I am going to have to really focus on diet this week as my exercise will be dropping off. I am not going to boot camp in the morning because I want to recover after Sunday and not get injured. I will not be running in my lunch break because I have a laser appointment (good bye mini mo) and I will not be going to judo because I will be staying back at work late. If I can get out of it I will go though.

I am home alone this week and made a Weight Watchers fried rice recipe for dinner. I think I have enough for tomorrow and Wednesday night too.

Ahhhh... I really enjoyed relaxing on the couch tonight. If only I didn't have to eat so many strawberry short breads with my cup of tea.

Skinny thoughts...

Empty Pantry...

We have ran out of food in the house. I am time and money poor at the moment.

I will have to pop into the supermarket on the way home from work all our weekend visitor will have no food. My BF's twin sister is coming for a visit.

One thing that happens when one in time poor and the pantry is empty is that I am limited on my healthy choices.

I got home late last night (you know that story). We had 2 minute noodles for tea. How sad is that! No wonder today I feel like crap.

Sunday I am going to get my act together. I will plan my meals for the week so I have no excuses.


Tonight we are having curried lentil and pumpkin soup http://www.weightwatchers.com.au/food/rcp/index.aspx?recipeid=33831. It is a delicious Weight Watchers recipe and affordable to make.

I will put some in the freezer. It is only 2 points for a serve too.

I have a busy weekend ahead.

Tomorrow morning I will weigh myself and I am sure I have gained but I cannot pretend it hasn't happened. You will see the weight.

My weekend involves 3 X birthday parties, a Tupperware party, a tourist kayak (includes breakfast) and a soccer game.

Oh it is going to be hard to make good food choices. I am actually looking forward to Monday so I can be healthy again.

Skinny thoughts...

Congratualtions Mary

Congratulations to Mary at http://eatyourpeasdear.blogspot.com/ on becoming a weight watchers life time member :-)

What an inspiration.

Day one

Well today is the day that I will take control of my food intake!

I woke up this morning and weighed 77.7 kg. It is my goal to weigh 69 kilos. I went for a run with some girls that I go running with every Saturday and have come home starving (exercise makes me hungry). The idea with being on Weight Watchers is to eat food that satisfy you and keep you fuller for longer. So I thought I'd go for the protein option. 3 X scrambled eggs with some grilled tomotoes. I'm still hungry.... I am going to have a cup of tea to make it all better.

Today I will not fail!

Thinking skinny thoughts.....