EPIC FAIL!

Hello tulips!

The weather is stunning today. I met my friends in the morning to go a 10 km jog. about 7 km into it (maybe it was even 5km) we ran past a cafe, paused...... "Does anybody feel like a coffee?"
So the 10km run did not happen but the coffee was great.

Rob has been pesting me to buy more "snack" type foods at the supermarket. I purposely buy wagon wheel biscuits for his snacks because I don't like them.


But now he is sick of them and wants chocolate chip biscuits. I kindly bought them and managed to eat half of them in 12 hours. Today I get the "How are you going to be the size you want if you keep eating crap" lecture. But I think it is his fault for making me buy them. Agree?

Well tonight is New Years Eve. I am going out for Thai with another couple. I only want a quiet night. Any resolutions? Not me. Last year I had a buy no clothes one, and it worked! I hope that I manage to get to 73kg by our engagement party, 26 Feb! WATCH THIS SPACE.

Happy New Year and Skinny Thoughts

Pollyx

Is it morning again already?

I am so tired. I don't know what is wrong with me. I left work early yesterday to snooze because being at work was a waste of time for me. Now I have to do it all over again.

I went for a run on Monday and ran 12 km and then I went to barre pilates. The festive season makes it difficult for exercise. So much socialising to be done :-) I am having drinks with girl friends after work which also stands for "MUST MAKE AN EFFORT WITH APPEARANCE TODAY". I am wearing some black pants that are just very slightly TIGHT around the bottom. I think a few threads have already busted! Oh well fingers crossed they survive!

This is where I am having drinks! Salamanca Place. Gotta Love OLD HOBART TOWN.

Skinny thoughts Px

Let's wake up and run 14km?

So Saturdat night as I went to bed I was all talk. "Polly, you will wake up early and go for a run. This time you will run further. Let's try 14km".

So I woke up this morning around 7. Got out of bed half an hour later pulled my gear on and heading out for a run. 2 km into the run I WAS BUSTING!!!! What does running do to our bodies that takes over your bowel? Luckily, I was running in the bush so I was able to go in the shrubs and um... yeah... Anyway, after that I did not feel too comfortable about an extended run so I just ran back home. TUT TUT!

Issue: On the 9th of January I am doing the CADBURY HALF MARATHON. Issue: The longest I have ran is 12km. I will give it another go tomorrow.

What an eye sore

Last night I went to judo. I love judo. I have been playing it since I was six but in the last couple of years I probably only show up to training once a month if I'm lucky.

I also blame judo for my weight woes (as she says whilst eating Arnotts shapes and typing, have you tried these?). My competing weight is 70kg. I started competing at the age of 14 and ever since then I have had it in my mind that I must weigh 70kg. It's weird for some to grasp. I have been adicted to the scales and I use to weigh myself sometimes 2 times daily. Once I had to lose 8 kilos for a competition. I managed to lose it in 5 days. Hence I am a former yo yo dieter and struggle to get out of the routine.

At judo last night I was accientally (well so he says) poked in the eye at FULL FORCE. It was so bizarre that I couldn't open my eyes, I totally lost my balance. I went to the eye doctor and spent $140 to be told that no damage was done. I guess it is good to know but $140 is a lot of money that I could have to pay off the evil credit card.

Skinny thoughts. Px

How time flies when you are eating cake

I haven't been blogging. I am not the creative writer type that loves to write nad write and write but I do love reading about everyone else. Recently I have been following plenty of Designer Blogs. Tasmania has so much talent, I just want to obsorb some. I guess it is about risk taking and just having an idea and going for it.

I went to the Hobart Designers Market on the weekend and was just amazed and overwhelmed by the level of innovation and creativity.

So what's news with me? Well... in August Rob and I got engaged!! Yahoo!! I would post a ring but I actually don't have one. We are having an engagement party in February (fingers crossed I have some bling by then).

Weight wos... well they are still the same. I am now weighing around 76kg. Last week I was running hardcore and got to 75kg. But I think I over did the whole running thing.

I have decided to enter in the Cadbury Half Marathon as a form of motivation. So far I am only running up to 14kms. With 3 weeks to go I need to find my inner GO GO JUICE.

I am actually fairly happy with my body. But it will be super cool if I could still get to 70kg. There was a picture of a girl on facebook who lost 20 kilos this past year and she looked amazing and almost too skinny. She motivated me to wake up this morning and run 10km :-)

I am going to try and keep blogging and share my wedding journey with you. Maybe you can give me some tips? For example: How do you deal with un happy friends who were not chosen to be a bridesmaid? I have a large cirlce of friends because I belong to different social groups. Choosing was tough! You sometimes wonder if I chose the right ones. One girl hasn't even really made contact with me since. I know she will be a freind for life and she isn't the person to touch base regulalry but when you have friends who reguallry visit you and ask you out for a coffee you do wonder....

Skinny thoughts (No, Polly stop thinking of hot chips)

In contrast to the skinny ones...

A couple of the ladies at work are asking me why I want to lose weight - I tell them that I have a whole wardrobe of clothes (really nice ones) that I cannot wear. Some things are brand new. These ladies are a little bigger than me and I can see their point in a way. I have friends that are smaller than me and want to lose weight. Are we ever going to be happy!

We don't get American Idol here but I saw the highlights of it on one of the entertainment segments of the Today show this morning and Janet Jackson is looking really good. She is a yo yo dieter for sure. I wonder what extreme measures she took to look like that? The costumer is a bit odd - ha ha!

When I am around my little running group I feel like the big person. I am taller and about 3 sizes bigger. I know we are all different shapes and sizes. We all have a different bone structure and fat goes to different areas of our body. I just feel out of place, odd!

Anyway, I have been good and I'm looking forward to weigh in on Tuesday.

Have a great weekend!

Wheatgrass tastes like.....

....GRASS! But I think I would rather eat grass? You basically add a teaspoon to some warm water but - GROSS! It is really disgusting. This super food cost me $20 so I am going to have to keep on taking it. I must admit I did feel more "alive" for the first half of the day.

Well I have got back on the Weight Watchers ban wagon after joining Weight Watchers at work.

I have been good and started off the day with an Australian classic - weet-bix!

I added some chia seeds, a small banana and skim milk (4 points). I was also a good girl and tool my vitamins :-)

After a great start to the day! I was ready for work. We are coming into winter so I made sure I warmed myself up with a nice cup of tea (1 point)!

Morning tea was 4 cruskits with a teaspoon of butter and some vegemite spread (2 points).

I went out for lunch with a friend and had vegetable and lamb soup with 1 piece of toast (4 points). No piccie! But that is probably a good thing as this taking pictures of your food then uploading and formatting thing takes a lot of time....

Afternoon tea I had a snack pack of vita-weets (1.5 points).

When I got home from work I was starving but I think I am always hungry after work out of habit? I wanted chocolate. I wanted to bust open the packet of oreos that are in the cupboard for Robert but instead I had a handful of mixed unsalted nuts.

Oh dear! I wonder how many points that will be? Oh dear... 3 points! mmmm... but there are lotz and lotz of goodies in nuts :-)

Dinner! I made lentil and pumpkin curry soup with multi-grain bread on the side (5 points) and a yogurt for dessert (1 point).

Well that abouts sums me up for the day. I have boring book work to do for Robert!

Today's stats:

21.5/20 points.

Skinny thoughts.............................

Weight Watchers @ Work starts today..

Yep it's here and I'm excited. Not exactly looking forward to weighing in as I feel like a FAT BLOB (TTOTM has finally arrived). But I am excited and motivated to succeed. In 13 weeks time you will hopefully hear me blabbing about how "fabulous" I feel not, "ooops I'm still here at 77kg"

I went to boot camp this morning and it was all upper body. My arms are DEAD!

Weigh in is 2:30 and it's currently 12:50. I am having my lunch as it is lunch time but it is hard not to side thought that I shouldn't be having lunch because I am going to weigh in soon. Ahh... life is so hard.

I bought some wheatgrass powder todasy (and a lotto ticket) I'm hoping the powder will help but I do thing the lotto win will be even better :-)

Skinny thoughts....

1 pink line

Just a quick post to my world before I go to bed.

Yesterday was the start of the Global Corporate Challenge. The idea is that you aim to do 10,000 steps a day. Even though I am not exercising this week I still managed to get 10,000 in yesterday. Today I had the day off work (thank you boss) and thought I'd do a massive clean. i ended up doing less than I thought (cleaning) but I did get 14,000 steps in. Amazing really!!

I thought I was pregnant all week. But I took a test today and I'm not so I must just be late. It is strange. When I first realised I was late I panicked - I have no money, we just got a mortgage, We only have s small 2 bedroom house, I don't have a permanent job, my job doesn't have maternity leave, i can't use the obstetrician on my health insurance for another 6 months - all these thoughts. Then you start planning how you can make it work. That the baby doesn't it's own room, we don't need to go all out and have a nursery, we can get everything second hand, I can use my stay at home time to help build up Rob's business, we can use the public health system, we can talk to the bank about consolidating debt. When I found out I wasn't I was like "oh okay, that's a pity".

And now she sleeps....

"Now now.. don't you just sit on the couch and eat"

Did I tell you that Rob is working away this week? I was just talking to him about how I am taking the week off exercise. He said that's a good thing but not to use it as an excuse to sit on the couch and eat! Now some people may think that what he said was rude. But in a way he was only being honest and I have realised that he knows me better than I thought. I have been coming home and sitting on the couch and eating.

Yum yum - weight watchers raspberry tartlets and English breakfast tea!!!

But this is how I relax? "Hello Polly do you or don't know want to fit back into your wardrobe??????'

You may wonder, why can't I just be happy to be my size? If you look at my profile picture I don't look obese and I am also a relatively fit and healthy person. Why can't I just be happy with that?

Well according to the rules I am classed as overweight. I also love that feeling of being in the 60's even if it is only 69.9 kg. I feel sexy, I feel like I can wear anything, i love myself more, I socialise more, I smile more... I want that back! I may only need to lose 7 kilos but I also need to do so much more (i.e. change the behaviour patterns that cause me to binge eat).

Cancelled!

I had my blog open at work and was gradually typing my post and then I accidentally deleted it.

I had a fudge of a day. I have finally finished a big project and now I just want to chill out for a bit but it is not happening. I always get nervous to ask the boss for a day off. Even last week when I had the migraine and rang up sick I felt like I was lying even though I was pretty much BLAH for the day. I would really like a Friday and a Monday off.

Now for the title of my post - I cancelled my Weight Watchers Unlimited membership today. I will join the WW on Tuesday and then get access to e-tools. I will actually be saving money :-)

I'm still restricted with my movement. My calves are still really sore and I am prepared to rest up for the rest of the week so I don't do any damage. Ha ha - any excuse to sleep in and stay in after work. It is getting colder and colder -bbrrrrgggghhhhh...

Okay I'm off to read an article about the yo yo dieter - who me?

Woo Hoo - Lotto Win!

Okay, before you get too excited and start asking me for loans it was only $28.80. But I really needed that little extra to keep me afloat until pay day. Money dissapears so quickly.

Can't move

Well, I am unable to walk today.

Our soccer team travelled up to Devonport for a State wide soccer match. I have no idea why we went. I guess it was for "expereice" we got flogged. I got injured 20 minutes into it. My calf muscles let go and I just couldn't move. So I have to take the week off and hopefully I'll be all better.

One negative to this is that the Global Corportate Challenge starts on Thursday. The idea is that you have to do 10,000 steps a day. I am team captain. I was looking forward to getting into it and doing some persoanl best results.

You know how I told you about the keeping the scales in the shed thing in my last post. Well I have discovered that Rob has not moved them into the shed and they are just sitting by the back door. As soon as I noticed this I hopped on (see I'm addicted). I was 75.9kh but I think that is because I didn't have tea last night. We were home pretty late after the match.

Well I'm not really wanting to be at work today but I am here. My projects have settled down a bit so I am catching up on filing. A dull but necessary part of my working life.

I am meeting a friend for sushi at lunch - yum yum

Skinny thoughts....

"Scales! Get out of my bathroom"

I weighed myself this morning in the nud! I am 77kg. I'm happy that I haven't gained but I think I seriously need to stop weighing myself everyday. You never see results. If I gain a little I think "Why do I bother? That's it I might as well have had that pizza". But it is perfectly natural to gain a little. Therefore, the scales are somewhere in the shed and I am only going to weigh myself every Tuesday at Weight Watchers.

I don't have good shoes to wear with jeans. I wear these brown flat ones with no support and are not particularly good for winter. My boyfriend has very kindly bought me a new pair of shoes.

Check them out:

They are a nice neutral green pair of Merrells. I love them! There is no way I could have afforded them with out him. Thank you Robbie XX

Weekend is nearly here

Brrrrggghhhhh…. It’s cold today.

There's not much going on at work for once so I am just filing and cleaning and doing all the boring things I have put off for the last 18 months. I am totally bored. Plus it is freezing.

A girl came into work looking totally hot in her jeans. It made me feel a bit uuurrrggghhhhh!! So I went for a run/plod at lunch time. I have been making healthy choices too.

I think I'll leave work early and then go into the city to catch up with a friend.

Skinny thoughts...

Weight Watchers at Work

I just rang up Weight Watchers to discuss my options in transferring my membership over from Unlimited to At Work :-(

The lady said that you can't do it. I will have to cancel and then re-sign up. But I'm not even sure if I get access to E-Tools. I will have to suss out what I will get and how much it will cost and do up a comparison.

I'm kind of seeing a lot of gorgeous, beautiful skinny women around lately. I want to be one of them and the only way I will be is if I "act" NOW!

Skinny thoughts...

Boot camp

YAWN.... I made it to boot camp. I was 5 minutes late but I refuse to wake up any early than 5 AM. I was the only non baby boomer there, but I had a good partner and can really feel the burn in my arms. As a result of YAWN, I forgot my hairbrush so after showering at work I've had to tie it back with my fingers and hope for the best. I'm seriously not very high maintenanced anyways so I don't really care about it. I can see the girly girls looking at me in that "how can you come to work like that" way. Oh well. Coffee and porridge time.

Skinny thougts....

Motivation

Motivation - what gets you out of bed in the morning or helps you run for that extra minute when you legs are burning!!!

I thought I may have lost complete care and motivation but I just finished soccer training (far out it was cold) and now I feel good!

Weight Watchers says that there are five factors that help find motivation:

1. Harness group support - I think I lack at this factor. I am hoping that WW at work will help with the discipline, drive and determination that you get from group support.
2. Write your goals down - I do have goals and how I'd reward them in my head but I think I should write them down so here goes:
   Goal 1 75 kg - reward with new running shoes and boy do I need them)
   Goal 2 73 kg - reward with a high visibility bike riding top (long sleeves as it is getting chilly)
   Goal 3 71.5 kg - reward with a facial
   Goal 4 70 kg - reward with some black boots (if I can afford them, my rewards are adding up)
   Goal 5 69.9 kg - this is my goal weight. I will reward myself by purchasing a full length mirror.
   Goal 6 LIFETIME MEMBERSHIP - I would love a weekend away with my man. We live in Tasmania and there are so many gorgeous places to go. I think I will pick Strahan.
   I know my goals are in very small increments but I am aware of just how slowly I am loosing it and when I get to the last five, they are always the hardest to lose.
3. Visualise what you want - I use to do this and I believe it works. I should do it again. I know that mentally I might set myself up for failure. Thinking - arrgh well you never lose it so why do you think you will this time.
4. Don't set the bar too high - I think this is what went wrong last time I did Weight Watchers. I remember wanting to be 67 kg and it is impossible for me. People who set unrealistic weight goals become demotivated. I think 69.9 is achievable?
5. Aim to avoid comparison - mmm.. hitting a weight loss plateau, feeling like other people are doing better than you or simply finding the regime harder than thought = demotivating. I must understand why my end goal is important to me and hold it in my mind.

Very interesting don't you think. I', heading to bed early. I'm hoping to make it to boot campt. I slept in yesterday (by choice) and didn't go.

Skinny thoughts...

Not to be read for inspiration.

One of the bloggers blogged "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different result - Albert Einstein".

I like it. It reminds me of my weight loss journey. Same exercise routine, same bad eating habits = same weight.

I don't feel like exercising this week. I scored myself a migraine after soccer on Sunday and had yesterday off work. today I feel tired and when I stopped off at the supermarket to buy bread I walked out with a packet of mars bar biscuits from the supermarket bakery. This is why I buy my groceries online, to stop myself from doing stupid things. I now feel so sick that I have changed into my pyjamas.

You probably shouldn't be reading this if you are looking for inspiration... I must be honest with myself and be weary of the triggers.

I think my frame of mind has some what taken a few steps backwards. Because Weight Watchers is coming to my work I am using it as an excuse not to bother. But now I feel like a fat slob. I think my period might be due. I'm not normally like this? Or am I?

I think I'll have a shower and get an early night.

ouch

After a fail of a day yesterday I made it to judo.

It was a struggle. I had to offer a girl at work a lift into town which is on my way to judo in order the make myself go. If she said no I would have just gone home. But now I am sore. I feel like th big girl at judo and I hate that feeling. I move slower, an I am not actaully that good at it. I do howver, have many war wounds to prove that I went. My butt is sore. Having a sore butt is difficult because the pain is deep within the fat layers where the bone is. You will find me often at the corner of my desk trying to give it a good rub. Ha ha!

I have bruises up my arm and my hip bone has a massive bruise. Then there's the shins....

My BF has the day off work. Lucky thing. He does work hard so he deserves it but I would so love a break from it all right now.

We both suck at communication. I am all dressed up with plans to go out for after work drinks with some girls in the city. However, Robert also made plans to invite people over for dinner. The weekends have been so full on that I haven't done any house work in 3 weeks. So I have to ditch drinks and go home and clean and then think of what to cook for tea.

Skinny thoughts...

Weight Watchers is coming to my work

That's right!

WW is coming to my work. We are booked in. I have no idea why it takes so long to organise. Anyway - we are starting TUE 25 May at 2 PM.

I have been slacking of the tracking and basically what I put in my mouth side of things for the last few weeks knowing that Weight Watchers is coming to my work. No more excuses (soon).

I didn't go to boot camp this morning. My boyfriend is not very good at motivating me to exercise. Every morning -

Rob: "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! Stay in bed"
Polly: "Don't do this to me, do you want a fat GF or a skinny one?"
Rob: "I want cuddles"
Polly: (thoughts in head) "Sounds nice, I like this attention"
Polly: "Okay"
1 minute later - we fall asleep and nothing happened and the calories from last nights ice cream settle back on my butt.

Now I feel sluggish. Now I feel like I just want to go home and do nothing. It is amazing how a start to the day that is outside your normal routine just takes you out of wack.

I weighed myself this morning. I weighed 77.7 kg. So I am really back at the start again.

*Sigh

It will happen though. I know that inside me is another body that wants to shine. Her clothes are waiting for her and taking up 3/4s of my wardrobe...

Skinny thoughts...

HONESTY is the best policy!!

I read in this month's Women's Health magazine that one of the keys to loosing weight successfully is to record openly and honestly about your weight loss journey. This includes the highs and lows lows lows.

So here I go. *GULP*

So last week was hectic at work and I didn't do any exercise for 6 days and you already know thatI organised a forum for work so there was lots of nice forum food to indulge it - I indulged!

On the weekend I tried to make up with it by exercising in all my spare time. But I'm still failing on the food part! I did try sometimes....

Saturday
Morning run with my girl friends followed by a latte and poached eggs and bacon on (only one) piece of toast.

Lunch time bike ride (40 km and lots of hills) followed by sarsaparilla and 2 X sausage roll ( 1 sausage roll = 10 points)

Too stuffed to cook dinner! Yep we ordered pizza! Gourmet vegetarian and a garlic prawn pizza. It was so delicious. Especially when I washed it down with REAL coke.

Sunday

Toast with Vegemite (love) and orange juice. Followed by a FULL game of soccer (we drew) and crisps as my partner was eating them when I got home.

I made a nice and healthy broccoli soup (only 2 points) for dinner. But um - failed it with a banana split!

I seriously don't eat like that all the time but how crazy? That pizza was seriously Devinne though :-)

I made a healthy pasta dish last night (I should start taking pictures) and tonight we are having mini pita bread pizzas (6.5 points) with salad (0 points).

I am seriously hoping that when Weight Watchers comes to work I get my act together.

Skinny thoughts.....

oh boy....

... okay so I am struggling! I am still at work trying to finsh an element of my project that is doing my ehad it. The roof of my mouth is salivating. I want chocolate! I need chocolate! Ha ha!

I do have a pear on my desk? nahhh..

Before you all jump over and clode my jaw I won't go upstair to the fundraising chocolates - promise *wink!

sweets please

Oh boy!

I'm struggling right now!

I just ate my healthy cruskits with vegemite but what I really want is lollies.

I will NOT give in!

Inspiration...

I have just read last months Weight Watchers magazine. Yeah I know I'm a bit behind. The magazines a piling up on my bedside table along with a the famous "eat, love, pray" novel that I have been reading on and off since Christmas. I blame it on the iPhone and facebook.

Anyway, there is an article in the magazine about a Physical Education teacher. She was into fitness but needed help with her diet. This is a woman after my own heart. She was a size 14 (my size) and is now a size 10- 12 (my goal size).

You know what. Because I have been running around with my Head chopped off I have no been tracking my points. I have now placed my lap top next to my bed so every night I will track my points and exercise again.

I think I am going to have to really focus on diet this week as my exercise will be dropping off. I am not going to boot camp in the morning because I want to recover after Sunday and not get injured. I will not be running in my lunch break because I have a laser appointment (good bye mini mo) and I will not be going to judo because I will be staying back at work late. If I can get out of it I will go though.

I am home alone this week and made a Weight Watchers fried rice recipe for dinner. I think I have enough for tomorrow and Wednesday night too.

Ahhhh... I really enjoyed relaxing on the couch tonight. If only I didn't have to eat so many strawberry short breads with my cup of tea.

Skinny thoughts...

Bruised and battered

I went to judo training yesterday and would like to take back my last post - I love judo.
I am now bruised and sore and can hardly walk. Ha ha! I don't see myself exercise anytime soon over the next couple of days. I have good days and bad days with judo. Yesterday was a bad day. I felt useless and everyone seems stronger and more capable then myself.

I also ate sausage rolls and hot chips after judo with my BF. I think that may have been slightly naughty but it did make me feel better.

Can you believe that I forgot to eat breakfast today? SHOCKER! I got to work and couldn't work out why I was so hungry. Luckily I have a stash of weight watchers muesli bars in my draws.

I really don't want to be at work today. Tasmania is the only state in Australia that doesn't have a public holiday today. You just wonder - WHY? WHY? WHY?

I have a slight sore throat too (am I whinging?)...

Skinny thoughts...

I love judo

Well... as hard as it was to try and stay awake all day at work yesterday and encourage/motivate myself to go to judo it was the best thing for me. I woke up and felt great

Judo makes me feel so happy and the people there are like a one big loving family. It is my blood. I have been doing judo on and off since I was six years old.

I also think judo is the cause behind my obsession with my weight and the history behind yo yo dieting. When you compete in judo you compete in weight categories. So from the age of 14 I have been dieting to be a certain weight. People may say why can't you just maintain it. But it is impossible. I use to always naturally sit between the two weight categories and then the more dieting I did the harder it was to lose and the more I gained to the point where I started crash dieting. We use to all go out for a big eat fest after a competition.

I hate saunas now. I lost 8 kilos in 5 days once from eating nothing, drinking nothing and sitting in a sauna with an old judo suit, garbage bags, baby oil and a shower cap to sweat it out.

Jockeys do it, boxers do it, it is just done.

I now struggle to maintain a balance. Binge eating was a routine part of my life.

I struggle so hard with diet.

Okay I better get some work done.

Skinny thoughts...

feeling a bit sleepy

Well I'm still tired. I think I need a day off work. Pity work is too busy for such an excuse.

I went to boot camp this morning and wasn't impressed! What is the point in waking up at 5 am, hanging out my washing getting my lunch ready and arriving at boot camp at 6 am for a session where I don't even get placed in an environment where I can push my limits and burn calories and hence lose weight. I would rather be in bed for another hours sleep. It costs me $10. Add that up over a month and you are talking $80.00. I will give it one more weeks shot and if it doesn't improve I will stop going. I get my work outs in other facets of my life - judo, soccer, running and mountain bike riding.

Listing everything I do every week makes me wonder why I am over weight and why I don't fit into 75% of of my wardrobe. Hmmmmmmm..... FOOOD!!!!! Yep my diet really needs more focus.

Skinny thoughts....

No run

Well I didn't go for my lunch time run and I can't help wonder if that is the reason why I am so tired right now. When I get tired (especially at this time of the day) I eat. I cam home early from work to prep food for dinner so I won't be up until 10 PM cooking away and now I am sleepy. I have tried to mitigate feeling tired through eating - NAUGHTY!!!!

I had some toast with jam and a cup of tea and I don't know how many marshmallows (my favourite food in the world).

Anyway, hopefully I won't eat much dinner after training.

Skinny thoughts...

A sneek peak

This morning I woke up and felt pretty good.

I did a naughty weigh in and I was so happy. I weighed 75.9 kilos. I hope that is the same result when I weigh in on Saturday.

When I get to 75kg (stable not just a once off) I will buy myself a new pair of running shoes. Well put them on lay-by.

I have soccer training tonight and I am not too sure if I will go for my lunch time run. I'm thinking about working through lunch so I can leave early and prep tea so after soccer I'm not eating the house :-)

Skinny thoughts...

Restrcited...

My work computer won't even let me comment on other peoples' blogs!

I want to ask Fab Kate what NSV means and thank Mary for her encouragement and rational thoughts during last weeks sagas.

Maybe I shoudl try and find an application for my iphone? Is there one?

Well I made soup for tea last night and I have the left overs for lunch. I went to boot camp this morning and I am hoping to make it to judo after work, cook tea, go to sleep, wake up and do it all over again!

Skinny thoughts....

Um... was that the weekend?

Far out!

The weekend is over and I'm back at work. I was so busy on the weekend that I didn't get time to sit down and blog. I did take a photo of my weigh in on Saturday morning and it did go up. I am limited with what I can do with my work computer so I will have to load it up later.

But I am back in the 77s. I am okay with this. It was TTOTM and I did eat half a loaf of bread in a sitting.

I went for a lunch time run and really enjoyed it. I would actually prefer it if I was still running instead of here right now. Work is really stressful, I can feel my heart racing with anxiety and stress. Luckily I am too stuff from the run to feel like chocolate.

Skinny thoughts...

Empty Pantry...

We have ran out of food in the house. I am time and money poor at the moment.

I will have to pop into the supermarket on the way home from work all our weekend visitor will have no food. My BF's twin sister is coming for a visit.

One thing that happens when one in time poor and the pantry is empty is that I am limited on my healthy choices.

I got home late last night (you know that story). We had 2 minute noodles for tea. How sad is that! No wonder today I feel like crap.

Sunday I am going to get my act together. I will plan my meals for the week so I have no excuses.


Tonight we are having curried lentil and pumpkin soup http://www.weightwatchers.com.au/food/rcp/index.aspx?recipeid=33831. It is a delicious Weight Watchers recipe and affordable to make.

I will put some in the freezer. It is only 2 points for a serve too.

I have a busy weekend ahead.

Tomorrow morning I will weigh myself and I am sure I have gained but I cannot pretend it hasn't happened. You will see the weight.

My weekend involves 3 X birthday parties, a Tupperware party, a tourist kayak (includes breakfast) and a soccer game.

Oh it is going to be hard to make good food choices. I am actually looking forward to Monday so I can be healthy again.

Skinny thoughts...

I think I worked out my weaknesses

Okay - so it is 3:45 pm on a Thursday. I have been here since 7:30 am and worked through lunch with the aim of leaving a 3 pm to do some book keeping for my BF's business before going to judo. But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.... one of my projects has turned to fumble jumble. So I am still here and don't see myself leaving anytime soon.

What did I do? What stupid thing have I just stuffed in my face with all because it has become a little stressful. I might be tough enough to play wild sports and do push ups but I am not tough enough to have the correct healthy thought processes that would have prevented me from just EATING A CHOCOLATE BAR!!!!!!

I am now so scared about weighing myself this coming Saturday. But right now I just want more chocolate.

Okay - I am going to walk down to the shops, buy a large coffee, breathe and chillax!

Weight Watchers is coming to my work

I belong to a Tuesday night meeting but I rarely get the chance to go because I am often workign back late. Plus I reckon it it the busiest meeting in Hobart. The line is soooooooo long to weight in that they have two lots of scales. You don't feel like you are part of a group but more like you are lining up to go to a massive concert or something and there isn't enough chairs for bums.

I am looking forward to it starting at my work. At first I thought it would be uncomfortable but I need to look beyond that. It will be really convenient.

Well yesterday was a bit of a flop. I made Chicken and Leek pie. It was a weight watchers recipe so I was feeling good about it. But the pie was so yummy that my BF and I consumed the whole dish. Plus I had to eat the left over crumble. Anyway, I think I can have two bad days a month. I'm feeling on top of things again. I went to boot camp this morning and just had my porridge with chia seeds. Now all I need is my coffee...

I really must try and not buy coffee my pennies are tight.

Skinny thoughts...

I feel like a fat blob!

You know how you feel down and agitated and some how convince yourself that:

• buying a fresh loaf of the nasty white bread and eating half with local honey and butter


• cooking a weight watchers recipe for tea but adding extra sesame oil


• baking a yummy high in sugar apple crumble and serving with double cream

is totally okay? I might as well have gone to Macca's. That was my evening meal last night.

I woke up this morning and felt like a fat sad blob only to discover that it is TTOTM!

As active as I am - Day 1 = I JUST WANT TO SIT ON THE COUCH AND WATCH DVDS AND EAT CHOCOLATE! I feel to heavy and gross to exercise.

But - there is no couch sitting for me. I'm at work hanging out for the coffee van so I can be a nice person.

It is strange how we are leading up to TTOTM.

There is a girl at work who just agitated me this week to the point where I would walk around the office building in a way that my path would not cross hers because I just didn't want to see her happy, skinny smile! I feel so bad now.

This girl (E) is lovely and she is one of my friends but sometimes you just need a break from it.

The other week I was wearing size 14 jeans to work on casual Friday. Her and her size 6-8 arse says to me "Oh my you look so good in those jeans, I wish I could wear jeans like that but my arse is too big". I just did not have the energy to tell her that she is actually HALF MY SIZE and looks hot. I could not take what she said as a compliment.

Where is that coffee van.....

What tools do others use to asst them with TTOTM. Do we all just use it as an excuse not to care about food anymore?

Skinny thoughts (well trying to)....

I missed the coffee van

I am gutted!!

Everyone morning a mobile coffee van comes past my work place. They make the best lattes and this morning I was so caught up in work that I forgot all about it! NO WAY!!

I am now on my second cup of tea in an attempt to move beyond the metal agony of no coffee.

I had a busy weekend. I was very active which I hope will counter the fact that I had 2 X curry nights in a row plus a roast for dinner last night.

I went for a run with some of my favourite girls on Saturday. I took Dad for a mountain bike ride Saturday afternoon only to discover that his first time is better than my 1 year of experience.

Yesterday was my first soccer game for the season. I am a little sore today. oooh I went to The Market that specialises in showcasing independent art and design. I bought myself some gorgeous porcelain earrings and some yummy honey.

The weather is crappo today - 15 degrees! I think Summer has offically had its day.

Skinny thoughts.......

Weigh In - Week 2

"Make me skinny, Make me skinny, Make me skinny"

That is what I was saying in my head over and over again as I waited for the numbers to flash up. I am happy to report a loss of 1.1 kg :-)

Starting weight: 77.7 kg

Weight this week: 76.6 kg

Loss this week: 1.1 kg

Loss so far: 1.1 kg

Weight loss to go: 7.6 kg

I am off for a run with my girlfriends this morning and I have my first soccer game tomorrow. I am hoping to find time for a bike ride.

It is a bit chilly. I think I need a nice cup of tea to kick start the day.

Congratualtions Mary

Congratulations to Mary at http://eatyourpeasdear.blogspot.com/ on becoming a weight watchers life time member :-)

What an inspiration.

Chia Seeds

I have started including chia seeds into my diet. Apparently two tea spoons a day will help me lose this weight and gain more energy. I couldn't sleep a wink last night. I wonder if it has anythign to do with the extra energy I gained from my seeds - HA HA!!

There are many other health benefits from chia seeds - high in protein, calcium, omega-3.......

I can't do my stats for yesterday. I didn't get time to track my points online last night and I cannot access the tool at work.

I did go for my lunch time run yesterday. I really enjoyed it.

This morning I did boot camp and now I am sitting at my desk with m porridge and chia seeds waiting impatiently for the coffee van to arrive.

Skinny thoughts...

Mondayitis on a Wednesday

Well Easter is over and work has begun. Daylight Savings also ended last weekend so today really feels like it is dragging. I also feel like chocolate. I'm okay with this feeling considering I didn't eat chocolate over Easter. I have eaten a Weight Watchers Choc Crisp Bar (1.5 points). Hopefully this settles the cravings.

Yesterday's Stats:

points: 19.5/20
exercise: 1.5 (ba bong)

I made yummy chicken and roast veg pita bread pizzas last night and they were only six points. The BF looooooooves them. I serve them with a large salad otherwise I would want more than one.

I am going to a lunch time run today. I am going to make a certain hill my friend.

Skinny thoughts...

Zombie Polly

I did Bikram Yoga last night (3.5 activity points). I am soooooo tired today. I am a zombie. I drove through a red light and don't even remember how I did it?

Yesterday's stats:

points: 19.5/20
actiivty: 5

Time for me to take a snoooooooze.

Skinny thoughts....

Pleasantly Surprised by Coffee

Did you know that a large skinny cafe latte from Gloria Jeans is only 1.5 points?

This is great news! I went for a walk with a friend this morning and finished it off with a lovely latte :-) HAPPINESS!

I did go for my mountain bike ride yesterday. It was the first time I went by myself and I actually got a little scared - ha ha! I had to go and fins some easy trails. I was afraid I'd be left laying in the bush otherwise.

I made spag bog last night. I was a bit shocked by the points (8). But I did include lots and lots of vegies in it. There is always a but....

Yesterdays stats:

Points: 24/20
Activity: 5.5

Skinny thoughts....

Easter Sunday

Happy Easter!!

I don't actually celebrate Easter. I was brought up on the First Testament so it is not an event that I practice. I do enjoy the days off work and the great display of chocolate in the supermarket.

I bought myself a bunny but ate it on Good Friday :-). I have the weekend home alone. I am trying to convince myself to go for a mountain bike ride. If I tell you that I am going to go then I will have to go. Does this mean I am abusing my blog? Ha ha!!! I am trying to make myself more accountable. It would be so easy to hang around in my PJ's for the day.

Yesterday's stats:

Points - 21/20
Activity - 7
and endless cups of tea...........

Skinny thoughts :0)

Day one

Well today is the day that I will take control of my food intake!

I woke up this morning and weighed 77.7 kg. It is my goal to weigh 69 kilos. I went for a run with some girls that I go running with every Saturday and have come home starving (exercise makes me hungry). The idea with being on Weight Watchers is to eat food that satisfy you and keep you fuller for longer. So I thought I'd go for the protein option. 3 X scrambled eggs with some grilled tomotoes. I'm still hungry.... I am going to have a cup of tea to make it all better.

Today I will not fail!

Thinking skinny thoughts.....

Tomorrow never comes.....

*Sigh

I want to lose weight! I want to lose weight and keep it off! I use to be able to have a mini binge, go for a run the next day and burn it off. Now I find that as I get older my 80% exercise and 20% diet = FAIL!!

I don't want to lose much weight. I will be happy with 9 kilos. Weighing 9 kilos more than I want to means that even though I am an exercise freak I don't move the way I want to. I can not fit into my nice "wow looking dazzling" clothes. I don't want to buy more clothes....... Unless I weigh 69 kilos.

Every night before I go to bed I swear that tomorrow will be a better day. Or I will have a massive binge to signify that I will never eat those foods again. Doesn't last long...

This time tomorrow will come.

I will wake up and weigh myself and burst it out to the world. I am going to start Weight Watchers (for the third time). Last time I went to WW the other ladies kept telling me I didn't need to lose weight. But when I am wearing my stretchy size 14 skirt and hearing the cries of my size 12 jeans from the wardrobe, I don't believe them!!!

I am not a talented writer. I don't know much about grammar, but I am unknown to you and I'm willing to give this a go!

Skinny thoughts...