oh boy....

... okay so I am struggling! I am still at work trying to finsh an element of my project that is doing my ehad it. The roof of my mouth is salivating. I want chocolate! I need chocolate! Ha ha!

I do have a pear on my desk? nahhh..

Before you all jump over and clode my jaw I won't go upstair to the fundraising chocolates - promise *wink!

sweets please

Oh boy!

I'm struggling right now!

I just ate my healthy cruskits with vegemite but what I really want is lollies.

I will NOT give in!

Inspiration...

I have just read last months Weight Watchers magazine. Yeah I know I'm a bit behind. The magazines a piling up on my bedside table along with a the famous "eat, love, pray" novel that I have been reading on and off since Christmas. I blame it on the iPhone and facebook.

Anyway, there is an article in the magazine about a Physical Education teacher. She was into fitness but needed help with her diet. This is a woman after my own heart. She was a size 14 (my size) and is now a size 10- 12 (my goal size).

You know what. Because I have been running around with my Head chopped off I have no been tracking my points. I have now placed my lap top next to my bed so every night I will track my points and exercise again.

I think I am going to have to really focus on diet this week as my exercise will be dropping off. I am not going to boot camp in the morning because I want to recover after Sunday and not get injured. I will not be running in my lunch break because I have a laser appointment (good bye mini mo) and I will not be going to judo because I will be staying back at work late. If I can get out of it I will go though.

I am home alone this week and made a Weight Watchers fried rice recipe for dinner. I think I have enough for tomorrow and Wednesday night too.

Ahhhh... I really enjoyed relaxing on the couch tonight. If only I didn't have to eat so many strawberry short breads with my cup of tea.

Skinny thoughts...

Bruised and battered

I went to judo training yesterday and would like to take back my last post - I love judo.
I am now bruised and sore and can hardly walk. Ha ha! I don't see myself exercise anytime soon over the next couple of days. I have good days and bad days with judo. Yesterday was a bad day. I felt useless and everyone seems stronger and more capable then myself.

I also ate sausage rolls and hot chips after judo with my BF. I think that may have been slightly naughty but it did make me feel better.

Can you believe that I forgot to eat breakfast today? SHOCKER! I got to work and couldn't work out why I was so hungry. Luckily I have a stash of weight watchers muesli bars in my draws.

I really don't want to be at work today. Tasmania is the only state in Australia that doesn't have a public holiday today. You just wonder - WHY? WHY? WHY?

I have a slight sore throat too (am I whinging?)...

Skinny thoughts...

I love judo

Well... as hard as it was to try and stay awake all day at work yesterday and encourage/motivate myself to go to judo it was the best thing for me. I woke up and felt great

Judo makes me feel so happy and the people there are like a one big loving family. It is my blood. I have been doing judo on and off since I was six years old.

I also think judo is the cause behind my obsession with my weight and the history behind yo yo dieting. When you compete in judo you compete in weight categories. So from the age of 14 I have been dieting to be a certain weight. People may say why can't you just maintain it. But it is impossible. I use to always naturally sit between the two weight categories and then the more dieting I did the harder it was to lose and the more I gained to the point where I started crash dieting. We use to all go out for a big eat fest after a competition.

I hate saunas now. I lost 8 kilos in 5 days once from eating nothing, drinking nothing and sitting in a sauna with an old judo suit, garbage bags, baby oil and a shower cap to sweat it out.

Jockeys do it, boxers do it, it is just done.

I now struggle to maintain a balance. Binge eating was a routine part of my life.

I struggle so hard with diet.

Okay I better get some work done.

Skinny thoughts...

feeling a bit sleepy

Well I'm still tired. I think I need a day off work. Pity work is too busy for such an excuse.

I went to boot camp this morning and wasn't impressed! What is the point in waking up at 5 am, hanging out my washing getting my lunch ready and arriving at boot camp at 6 am for a session where I don't even get placed in an environment where I can push my limits and burn calories and hence lose weight. I would rather be in bed for another hours sleep. It costs me $10. Add that up over a month and you are talking $80.00. I will give it one more weeks shot and if it doesn't improve I will stop going. I get my work outs in other facets of my life - judo, soccer, running and mountain bike riding.

Listing everything I do every week makes me wonder why I am over weight and why I don't fit into 75% of of my wardrobe. Hmmmmmmm..... FOOOD!!!!! Yep my diet really needs more focus.

Skinny thoughts....

No run

Well I didn't go for my lunch time run and I can't help wonder if that is the reason why I am so tired right now. When I get tired (especially at this time of the day) I eat. I cam home early from work to prep food for dinner so I won't be up until 10 PM cooking away and now I am sleepy. I have tried to mitigate feeling tired through eating - NAUGHTY!!!!

I had some toast with jam and a cup of tea and I don't know how many marshmallows (my favourite food in the world).

Anyway, hopefully I won't eat much dinner after training.

Skinny thoughts...

A sneek peak

This morning I woke up and felt pretty good.

I did a naughty weigh in and I was so happy. I weighed 75.9 kilos. I hope that is the same result when I weigh in on Saturday.

When I get to 75kg (stable not just a once off) I will buy myself a new pair of running shoes. Well put them on lay-by.

I have soccer training tonight and I am not too sure if I will go for my lunch time run. I'm thinking about working through lunch so I can leave early and prep tea so after soccer I'm not eating the house :-)

Skinny thoughts...

Restrcited...

My work computer won't even let me comment on other peoples' blogs!

I want to ask Fab Kate what NSV means and thank Mary for her encouragement and rational thoughts during last weeks sagas.

Maybe I shoudl try and find an application for my iphone? Is there one?

Well I made soup for tea last night and I have the left overs for lunch. I went to boot camp this morning and I am hoping to make it to judo after work, cook tea, go to sleep, wake up and do it all over again!

Skinny thoughts....

Um... was that the weekend?

Far out!

The weekend is over and I'm back at work. I was so busy on the weekend that I didn't get time to sit down and blog. I did take a photo of my weigh in on Saturday morning and it did go up. I am limited with what I can do with my work computer so I will have to load it up later.

But I am back in the 77s. I am okay with this. It was TTOTM and I did eat half a loaf of bread in a sitting.

I went for a lunch time run and really enjoyed it. I would actually prefer it if I was still running instead of here right now. Work is really stressful, I can feel my heart racing with anxiety and stress. Luckily I am too stuff from the run to feel like chocolate.

Skinny thoughts...

Empty Pantry...

We have ran out of food in the house. I am time and money poor at the moment.

I will have to pop into the supermarket on the way home from work all our weekend visitor will have no food. My BF's twin sister is coming for a visit.

One thing that happens when one in time poor and the pantry is empty is that I am limited on my healthy choices.

I got home late last night (you know that story). We had 2 minute noodles for tea. How sad is that! No wonder today I feel like crap.

Sunday I am going to get my act together. I will plan my meals for the week so I have no excuses.


Tonight we are having curried lentil and pumpkin soup http://www.weightwatchers.com.au/food/rcp/index.aspx?recipeid=33831. It is a delicious Weight Watchers recipe and affordable to make.

I will put some in the freezer. It is only 2 points for a serve too.

I have a busy weekend ahead.

Tomorrow morning I will weigh myself and I am sure I have gained but I cannot pretend it hasn't happened. You will see the weight.

My weekend involves 3 X birthday parties, a Tupperware party, a tourist kayak (includes breakfast) and a soccer game.

Oh it is going to be hard to make good food choices. I am actually looking forward to Monday so I can be healthy again.

Skinny thoughts...

I think I worked out my weaknesses

Okay - so it is 3:45 pm on a Thursday. I have been here since 7:30 am and worked through lunch with the aim of leaving a 3 pm to do some book keeping for my BF's business before going to judo. But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.... one of my projects has turned to fumble jumble. So I am still here and don't see myself leaving anytime soon.

What did I do? What stupid thing have I just stuffed in my face with all because it has become a little stressful. I might be tough enough to play wild sports and do push ups but I am not tough enough to have the correct healthy thought processes that would have prevented me from just EATING A CHOCOLATE BAR!!!!!!

I am now so scared about weighing myself this coming Saturday. But right now I just want more chocolate.

Okay - I am going to walk down to the shops, buy a large coffee, breathe and chillax!

Weight Watchers is coming to my work

I belong to a Tuesday night meeting but I rarely get the chance to go because I am often workign back late. Plus I reckon it it the busiest meeting in Hobart. The line is soooooooo long to weight in that they have two lots of scales. You don't feel like you are part of a group but more like you are lining up to go to a massive concert or something and there isn't enough chairs for bums.

I am looking forward to it starting at my work. At first I thought it would be uncomfortable but I need to look beyond that. It will be really convenient.

Well yesterday was a bit of a flop. I made Chicken and Leek pie. It was a weight watchers recipe so I was feeling good about it. But the pie was so yummy that my BF and I consumed the whole dish. Plus I had to eat the left over crumble. Anyway, I think I can have two bad days a month. I'm feeling on top of things again. I went to boot camp this morning and just had my porridge with chia seeds. Now all I need is my coffee...

I really must try and not buy coffee my pennies are tight.

Skinny thoughts...

I feel like a fat blob!

You know how you feel down and agitated and some how convince yourself that:

• buying a fresh loaf of the nasty white bread and eating half with local honey and butter


• cooking a weight watchers recipe for tea but adding extra sesame oil


• baking a yummy high in sugar apple crumble and serving with double cream

is totally okay? I might as well have gone to Macca's. That was my evening meal last night.

I woke up this morning and felt like a fat sad blob only to discover that it is TTOTM!

As active as I am - Day 1 = I JUST WANT TO SIT ON THE COUCH AND WATCH DVDS AND EAT CHOCOLATE! I feel to heavy and gross to exercise.

But - there is no couch sitting for me. I'm at work hanging out for the coffee van so I can be a nice person.

It is strange how we are leading up to TTOTM.

There is a girl at work who just agitated me this week to the point where I would walk around the office building in a way that my path would not cross hers because I just didn't want to see her happy, skinny smile! I feel so bad now.

This girl (E) is lovely and she is one of my friends but sometimes you just need a break from it.

The other week I was wearing size 14 jeans to work on casual Friday. Her and her size 6-8 arse says to me "Oh my you look so good in those jeans, I wish I could wear jeans like that but my arse is too big". I just did not have the energy to tell her that she is actually HALF MY SIZE and looks hot. I could not take what she said as a compliment.

Where is that coffee van.....

What tools do others use to asst them with TTOTM. Do we all just use it as an excuse not to care about food anymore?

Skinny thoughts (well trying to)....

I missed the coffee van

I am gutted!!

Everyone morning a mobile coffee van comes past my work place. They make the best lattes and this morning I was so caught up in work that I forgot all about it! NO WAY!!

I am now on my second cup of tea in an attempt to move beyond the metal agony of no coffee.

I had a busy weekend. I was very active which I hope will counter the fact that I had 2 X curry nights in a row plus a roast for dinner last night.

I went for a run with some of my favourite girls on Saturday. I took Dad for a mountain bike ride Saturday afternoon only to discover that his first time is better than my 1 year of experience.

Yesterday was my first soccer game for the season. I am a little sore today. oooh I went to The Market that specialises in showcasing independent art and design. I bought myself some gorgeous porcelain earrings and some yummy honey.

The weather is crappo today - 15 degrees! I think Summer has offically had its day.

Skinny thoughts.......

Weigh In - Week 2

"Make me skinny, Make me skinny, Make me skinny"

That is what I was saying in my head over and over again as I waited for the numbers to flash up. I am happy to report a loss of 1.1 kg :-)

Starting weight: 77.7 kg

Weight this week: 76.6 kg

Loss this week: 1.1 kg

Loss so far: 1.1 kg

Weight loss to go: 7.6 kg

I am off for a run with my girlfriends this morning and I have my first soccer game tomorrow. I am hoping to find time for a bike ride.

It is a bit chilly. I think I need a nice cup of tea to kick start the day.

Congratualtions Mary

Congratulations to Mary at http://eatyourpeasdear.blogspot.com/ on becoming a weight watchers life time member :-)

What an inspiration.

Chia Seeds

I have started including chia seeds into my diet. Apparently two tea spoons a day will help me lose this weight and gain more energy. I couldn't sleep a wink last night. I wonder if it has anythign to do with the extra energy I gained from my seeds - HA HA!!

There are many other health benefits from chia seeds - high in protein, calcium, omega-3.......

I can't do my stats for yesterday. I didn't get time to track my points online last night and I cannot access the tool at work.

I did go for my lunch time run yesterday. I really enjoyed it.

This morning I did boot camp and now I am sitting at my desk with m porridge and chia seeds waiting impatiently for the coffee van to arrive.

Skinny thoughts...

Mondayitis on a Wednesday

Well Easter is over and work has begun. Daylight Savings also ended last weekend so today really feels like it is dragging. I also feel like chocolate. I'm okay with this feeling considering I didn't eat chocolate over Easter. I have eaten a Weight Watchers Choc Crisp Bar (1.5 points). Hopefully this settles the cravings.

Yesterday's Stats:

points: 19.5/20
exercise: 1.5 (ba bong)

I made yummy chicken and roast veg pita bread pizzas last night and they were only six points. The BF looooooooves them. I serve them with a large salad otherwise I would want more than one.

I am going to a lunch time run today. I am going to make a certain hill my friend.

Skinny thoughts...

Zombie Polly

I did Bikram Yoga last night (3.5 activity points). I am soooooo tired today. I am a zombie. I drove through a red light and don't even remember how I did it?

Yesterday's stats:

points: 19.5/20
actiivty: 5

Time for me to take a snoooooooze.

Skinny thoughts....

Pleasantly Surprised by Coffee

Did you know that a large skinny cafe latte from Gloria Jeans is only 1.5 points?

This is great news! I went for a walk with a friend this morning and finished it off with a lovely latte :-) HAPPINESS!

I did go for my mountain bike ride yesterday. It was the first time I went by myself and I actually got a little scared - ha ha! I had to go and fins some easy trails. I was afraid I'd be left laying in the bush otherwise.

I made spag bog last night. I was a bit shocked by the points (8). But I did include lots and lots of vegies in it. There is always a but....

Yesterdays stats:

Points: 24/20
Activity: 5.5

Skinny thoughts....

Easter Sunday

Happy Easter!!

I don't actually celebrate Easter. I was brought up on the First Testament so it is not an event that I practice. I do enjoy the days off work and the great display of chocolate in the supermarket.

I bought myself a bunny but ate it on Good Friday :-). I have the weekend home alone. I am trying to convince myself to go for a mountain bike ride. If I tell you that I am going to go then I will have to go. Does this mean I am abusing my blog? Ha ha!!! I am trying to make myself more accountable. It would be so easy to hang around in my PJ's for the day.

Yesterday's stats:

Points - 21/20
Activity - 7
and endless cups of tea...........

Skinny thoughts :0)

Day one

Well today is the day that I will take control of my food intake!

I woke up this morning and weighed 77.7 kg. It is my goal to weigh 69 kilos. I went for a run with some girls that I go running with every Saturday and have come home starving (exercise makes me hungry). The idea with being on Weight Watchers is to eat food that satisfy you and keep you fuller for longer. So I thought I'd go for the protein option. 3 X scrambled eggs with some grilled tomotoes. I'm still hungry.... I am going to have a cup of tea to make it all better.

Today I will not fail!

Thinking skinny thoughts.....

Tomorrow never comes.....

*Sigh

I want to lose weight! I want to lose weight and keep it off! I use to be able to have a mini binge, go for a run the next day and burn it off. Now I find that as I get older my 80% exercise and 20% diet = FAIL!!

I don't want to lose much weight. I will be happy with 9 kilos. Weighing 9 kilos more than I want to means that even though I am an exercise freak I don't move the way I want to. I can not fit into my nice "wow looking dazzling" clothes. I don't want to buy more clothes....... Unless I weigh 69 kilos.

Every night before I go to bed I swear that tomorrow will be a better day. Or I will have a massive binge to signify that I will never eat those foods again. Doesn't last long...

This time tomorrow will come.

I will wake up and weigh myself and burst it out to the world. I am going to start Weight Watchers (for the third time). Last time I went to WW the other ladies kept telling me I didn't need to lose weight. But when I am wearing my stretchy size 14 skirt and hearing the cries of my size 12 jeans from the wardrobe, I don't believe them!!!

I am not a talented writer. I don't know much about grammar, but I am unknown to you and I'm willing to give this a go!

Skinny thoughts...